@hazardwarning do you mind if I take a look at these too Vanessa? I have my own struggles with anxiety and deep dark depressive episodes.
// @matigo @sumudu @streakmachine
@streakmachine Yep, massive fan. Fond memories of the early 90’s right there. I was 10 when these episodes were airing here. Can’t believe there were only 40 episodes though.
Almost tempted to crack this open to have with my cup of tea. Emotional eating at its best.
After a fair bit of reflection, I’ve decided to start painting at night again before I go to bed. I’m hoping this will help with winding down and getting some quality sleep. The stress of the day job has really got to me in the last month or so. After me and my friend had a bit of a laugh on the train home today, I’m also binge watching The Trap Door on YouTube. I wonder how many of you remember this cartoon. It was a childhood favourite.
@matigo Thanks mate, I have my fingers crossed. I’ve had a couple of good days so far this week so I hope this keeps up. I’m in two minds whether to go through with requesting to change teams now because of these good days. I have a massive support network from a fair few workmates (all in different teams) who think I should just bite the bullet and go for it. It’s my health and well being I have to look out for too.
@matigo I’m not. There are other people that have recently moved from other teams to mine that feel the negative energy. Trouble is, when the reshuffle happened I was still heavily reliant on my sit stand desk because of my knee. I was adamant I didn’t want to move. At that time I had a different team leader that was quite supportive and now the regular one is back, I’ve hit rock bottom again in terms of self worth and motivation. Overall team morale has taken a beating too.
@matigo Agreed. Hate the idea of going back to hell tomorrow. I feel like I’m having an anxiety attack because of all this. And the worst part is, I don’t know if talking to anyone about it will solve anything.
@matigo I’ll be honest, I’m not sure. I don’t even know if I want to go through with it yet. I’ve spoken to other team leaders and they all say the same thing: “don’t worry, everything will fall into place as it happens”. I guess I just have a shit team leader.
I’m not dealing at all well at the moment. I’ve had too many days this week where I’ve burst into tears on the train home. And all because of the day job. I am very tempted to request to change teams because I can’t handle the negative energy. No matter how much I turn a blind eye to it, deep down it affects me badly. And knowing that I can’t ask for help from anyone but one person in the team is dragging me down too. At the same time I’m tempted to just keep my head down and not say a word.