@sumudu Yeah, maybe I should. It might give me a bit of closure on the situation and let it go that way. We’re still talking so I guess things can’t be that bad, right?
// @matigo
@matigo That seems fair too. That being said, I’m not as angry as I was last night but I still feel like I’ll say things I’ll regret later. I need to not feel like that before I can say anything, I’m even tempted to just write everything down and show it to him to see the reaction.
// @sumudu
@matigo I’ve never been a great writer but since it’s for my viewing only it doesn’t really matter. My handwriting is surprisingly shocking to say the least, not to mention it would all be smudged by the ink that always leaves its mark on my left hand pinky finger. Which is why the digital route seems like a better idea for me. In any case it would be password protected so no one else would find it.
@matigo I just don’t know if this friendship is worth saving anymore. I wonder if writing everything I feel about the situation somewhere and just letting it go that way would be more helpful to me. I’m just so angry right now though.
@matigo It could be that he just can’t see beyond his own little bubble but until I know that for sure I’m left with so many unanswered questions. He doesn’t see any issues but I do and my anxious mind won’t let it go. I can’t talk about it all through text because I feel like my words will be misconstrued somehow. Each time I try and make plans to sort it out face to face there’s either been stuff he’s forgot about or things gets “sprung” on him.
@hazardwarning I’m working on decluttering my mind while I have this forced break. Only then will I be able to think about where to go next. I know what kind of jobs I want to go for so that’s not an issue and I’m happy to be getting so many interviews in a short space of time. I might even be able to learn other stuff while I’m at it. I hope your last day in the office went well and also sending hugs your way for the sad times.
@sumudu I feel the same way. I think writing here is probably better than writing in any kind of journal, at least you can get advice from others and gain a different perspective even when you can’t see it for yourself.
They say never to make any decisions while you’re angry but I really don’t know what to do in this situation. I feel like I’ve been kicked in the guts by this particular “friend” so many times that I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t feel like he’s being completely honest with me yet trying to get any kind of information out of him is like extracting teeth. It’s not in my nature to cut people out of my life completely but I feel like I have no choice. Can anyone give me some advice? Maybe there’s cues I’m not seeing here - I’ve never been great at that either.