Another two interviews lined up today. One is this Wednesday, the other on next Monday. I’ve got another two that’s up to referee check stage. Feeling pretty ok about it all at the moment.
@matigo it really does! I hate the feeling of not being able to talk to him. I feel like giving him space is the right thing to do but I’m always the one to break the silence after a few days. It would just be nice to know where I stand.
I’m still torn with what to do about this situation. I guess I’ll have a better answer during the week. I can’t break the silence, I just can’t. It’s difficult to resolve a situation when the other party doesn’t see a problem and thinks everything is ok. I know my anxious mind is playing games with me but I want to settle this cause it’s going to break me if I don’t.
@sumudu Yeah, maybe I should. It might give me a bit of closure on the situation and let it go that way. We’re still talking so I guess things can’t be that bad, right?
// @matigo
@matigo That seems fair too. That being said, I’m not as angry as I was last night but I still feel like I’ll say things I’ll regret later. I need to not feel like that before I can say anything, I’m even tempted to just write everything down and show it to him to see the reaction.
// @sumudu
@matigo I’ve never been a great writer but since it’s for my viewing only it doesn’t really matter. My handwriting is surprisingly shocking to say the least, not to mention it would all be smudged by the ink that always leaves its mark on my left hand pinky finger. Which is why the digital route seems like a better idea for me. In any case it would be password protected so no one else would find it.
@matigo I just don’t know if this friendship is worth saving anymore. I wonder if writing everything I feel about the situation somewhere and just letting it go that way would be more helpful to me. I’m just so angry right now though.
@matigo It could be that he just can’t see beyond his own little bubble but until I know that for sure I’m left with so many unanswered questions. He doesn’t see any issues but I do and my anxious mind won’t let it go. I can’t talk about it all through text because I feel like my words will be misconstrued somehow. Each time I try and make plans to sort it out face to face there’s either been stuff he’s forgot about or things gets “sprung” on him.