yeah, it is. I would’ve rather done it face to face but at least it’s a start. I think keeping it simple and not letting my feelings get in the way helped a little bit too.

matigo.ca.

Had a really good conversation with my friend last night. It was nice just to talk about random stuff and as it turns out, he’d been really quiet cause he’s got a lot of stuff going on but he’s never been very good at expressing that. I did think it was me he had issues with and he was just being a dick. Now I know that’s not the case and we can move on.

Yeah it would. I can only take being kicked while I’m down for so long.

it’d just be nice not to be kicked in the guts for once.

matigo.ca.

I didn’t talk to him for a good part of a week and he was all like ‘hey, how’s it going?’ as if there isn’t an issue. There’s so many things I want to say but I can’t do it via iMessage or if I were to see him on the train. He knows that, yet he won’t commit to any plans that are made either. How the hell do I get around that?

matigo.ca.

Thanks mate 😁

matigo.ca.

Another two interviews lined up today. One is this Wednesday, the other on next Monday. I’ve got another two that’s up to referee check stage. Feeling pretty ok about it all at the moment.

That’s the only thing I feel like I can do right now.

sumudu.me.

it really does! I hate the feeling of not being able to talk to him. I feel like giving him space is the right thing to do but I’m always the one to break the silence after a few days. It would just be nice to know where I stand.

matigo.ca.

I’m still torn with what to do about this situation. I guess I’ll have a better answer during the week. I can’t break the silence, I just can’t. It’s difficult to resolve a situation when the other party doesn’t see a problem and thinks everything is ok. I know my anxious mind is playing games with me but I want to settle this cause it’s going to break me if I don’t.