Thank you Peter. I definitely hit my lowest point and it’s tough to come back from it but I’m getting there, slowly.

I’ve been kinda laying low for a while, just focusing on building my sense of self, especially after my massive anxiety attack a week or two ago. That wasn’t a fun experience and one I never want to have again.

I know exactly how that feels. In recent weeks I’ve become quite the night owl.

Aww, it’s ok. Once she sees the thought and hard work I put into doing these, she’ll soon change her mind about the whole thing. I’m not spending beyond my means cause I’m always looking for bargains so I figure if it makes me happy, I’ll continue to do it.

Conversation with mum earlier, while I’m organising the 2 days worth of China Mail1 I got:
Mum: When are you going to stop buying these?
Me: Probably never, why?
Mum: Well can you at least finish some of the ones you have first?
Me: Yeah, of course. These ones2 won’t take long to finish anyway. And plus I have enough storage now I can do more than one at the same time.
Mum: Hmph, yeah ok I guess (and walks off)

What she doesn’t realise is that two of these paintings are actually for her. One will most likely to be delivered tomorrow and the other is in transit.


  1. This is what we diamond painting enthusiasts call the mail we get as they are mainly manufactured in China

  2. The partial paintings I got

It does. You can get them in round or square diamonds. Round is much faster and square is a lot more fiddly and time consuming. It does help with anxiety though. I feel like I’m in a different world while I’m working on my paintings.

thanks for hugs! I need a lot of those to get me through at the moment.

no, it wasn’t. I had a massive fight with my mum, which turned into a nasty anxiety attack, which turned into quite the intense migraine. Let’s just say it all went downhill. I’ve now made up with my mum and I feel like I’m back on track.

no. what was meant to be a nice Mario Kart session with my brother in law and my niece turned nasty by the afternoon and left me quite anxiety ridden.

Not a good day today.