I honestly don't know how to feel right now. There's so many thoughts going through my mind at the moment. I think it's finally time to disassociate myself from my father for good now. I've put up with his idiotic behaviour for long enough. I'm numb, upset, angry and I'm sure many more emotions will surface as the night goes on. For now I think I'll just play Zelda for a while and forget the world exists.